The broken clay, The relentless potter

Even on the days, our minds can’t submit, our bodies should still make their way to Allah. I battle with major depression. Unlike sadness, I do not need a reason. I can be content with my haves and patient in my have-nots, and my trigger can be as mundane as a conversation gone wrong, with the effect as damaging as a fall into the deepest depressive episode, from the highest cliff of happiness I have climbed in a while. It sucks all joy, all connection from everything I hold dear. I become detached from everything, and that includes my Islam. 

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EBH #11.4: Those signs are for you, Don’t neglect them!

Just Imagine out of all these people I have mentioned, I am in the only one thinking divorce, That’s a serious battle. Just like every single person was involved during your wedding, that’s how they will be involved when anything serious happens in your marriage, it’s not a one man’s thing at all. I cannot count the numbers of times my father-in-law called myself and my husband for a meeting, he was either sharing his experience or praying for the both of us… Continue reading EBH #11.4: Those signs are for you, Don’t neglect them!

EBH #11.3: Those signs are for you, Don’t neglect them!

I can’t explain the feeling, those were my last words, even when I was to speak to my mum, I could say nothing…
My intensity of wailing increased with the degree of heartache. My husband had said okay to my request and it was time for D and C, my sister in law (God bless her soul) played the role of a mother, she was there all through. Continue reading EBH #11.3: Those signs are for you, Don’t neglect them!

EBH #11.2: Those signs are for you, Don’t neglect them!

Somebody wake me up!!! This is a joke right!
I kept repeating the “I decided to get pregnant part. I was shocked! Abi it is only in movies that husbands react beautifully to the news of pregnancy? I didn’t know what to think where I was seated. Continue reading EBH #11.2: Those signs are for you, Don’t neglect them!

EBH #8: Is the first year of marriage as hard as people make it seem? My experience!

The number of times I heard “The first year of marriage is the toughest year of Marriage” before getting, I cannot count. So even when I tried repelling the thoughts I couldn’t or maybe I didn’t try enough, Would you blame me?  Continue reading EBH #8: Is the first year of marriage as hard as people make it seem? My experience!

EBH #7: “I couldn’t… So I asked him to marry a second wife…”

Life! Life! Life! I remember seeing BK’s Instagram post about amount of love and support she has gotten over this segment and something immediately said, Email her. later that evening she requested for a post and I was very skeptical, I wasn’t going to do this now but then I realized Ramadhan is approaching and prayers will intensify, People who are single and still searching won’t go slow on the Du’as at all, Which is fine, I just don’t want you guy’s thinking because you met him at the Masjid, he is now your all shades of “Ustadh”. Continue reading EBH #7: “I couldn’t… So I asked him to marry a second wife…”